| So I have to say that all is well in Carbondale, Illinois.
Marching band is consuming my soul, but in many way it is amazingly fun for the people I have met.
Things school wise are okay, I need to kinda kick myself in the ass, I need to realize that the whole point of college is so that I can get an education so I can pursue my career of being a teacher...
Ziggy, is just completely amazing.
Those who don't know Ziggy is my boyfriend. An amazing guy and truly the kindest person I know. I'm so happy, the way he makes me feel is just unbelievable. His real name is Jared Wharton but everyone calls him Ziggy and i mean everyone...
we've been given the nickname "zigga"
lol
I figured I'd update just to say that everything is going great...
tons of love*Iza
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| Even the best fall down sometimes
it's been an extremely long 3 weeks of college, but i have to admit i love being at Southern, there's so many new things here and i love campus. Classes are going well my only complaint is my social life
I just wanna find somebody....and I thought I did but he tore my heart out completely...
I'm tired of being told
"I don't want a relationship right now"
It's happened wayyyy too often
We'll see what happens, i just need to give myself some time.
I'm going home with my room mate for the weekend which should be fun
Oh and btw for all my northern friends
I'm going to be at Northwestern for the football game on the 13th of September!!!!!! Come see me!!!!
tons of love*Iza
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| I'm sick of going from one extreme feeling to another...I feel like that's all it's been for me these past 5 days or so. Just extreme sides of feelings...
I love him more then anyone else will ever know and I look at him and my heart just completely melts. When he kisses me the way he did tonight, it puts me to the highest place i could be....
But he can be the biggest asshole I've ever met...
I fell in love with the greatest and worst guy on the planet...is that even possible?
I guess for me it is...
Idk how I'm gonna get through this one....I just need to leave, but how can I when not a single part of me wants to leave behind the greatest friend I've ever known....
3 more days till school, I'm so scared.
tons of love*Iza
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| I don't wanna leave....
but at the same time I do
Is it possible that he's the one? I feel like it every time I'm with him...
We're broken up, but still act like we're together....
I'm the only girl he could ever actually love...all the others are just temporary forms of pleasure...
Oh and I got walked in on for my first time ever today, and it just so happened it was on his basement floor...at 1:30 in the morning, him completely naked and me in a Victoria's Secret dress
Ya, he's gonna get a great talk tomorrow morning...
tons of love*Iza
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| I'm not sure why I ever thought I would be worth it to him....
It's over...done with...finished
And to all those that knew it wouldn't last...here's your chance
i told ya so
tons of love*Iza
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